bestday yg lame tak sambot bersame keluarge

hehe… so its hari raya… nothing much about that… except on the 3rd day of raya… its an early birthday… kak yong nak balek paret buntar so dicepatkan 2 hari…

alaa.. gamba ni rosak lak...

malas nak nulis.. tengok gamba je la ek…

kek hari jadi yg takde tules adie

pasan kan… tuleh happy birthday je… tak tules adie nyer birthday… kak yong.. ni kek memang stanby utk sape2 punye ke? macam you citer pasal kad tu… hehe.. lawak je… thanks… ingatkan makan kuay tiaw izati buat… skali ade kek skali… terime kaseh ikram kerane baya astro tu.. kalau takde astro takde la animax… kalau takde animax tak jadi la suprise… sebab tengok katon sampai tak pasan.. hahaha

graphic novel Okko dari kak yong

ni kak yong blanje.. actually ni hadiah raye… hadiah hari jadi belom ade lagi… kalau tau die nak baya dah pileh Hellboy collection dah… tapi yg tu mahal… hehe… tapi sape2 nak belikan pon ok jugak.. hahaha… RM169.90 je… je… je je.. takde ek?? thanks again to kak yong… kepade yg di kelileng kak yong a.k.a Nurihkwani Idayu… kalau hari jadi dah dekat pastu die ajak kuar cari barang… pileh je barang yg best2 pastu mase nak baya saje je brato blakang die… kalau tetibe die cakap nak baya sebab nak pecahkan duit… anda berjaye.. tapi kalau die tak cakap… makne nye kene letak balek.. hehehe…

hehe.. hadiah gak ni.. tapi beli sendiri la.. hadiah utk diri sendiri... takleh ke?

ni beli sendiri… sebab cari kat KL mahal.. kat Penang lak murah… tapi duit tak brapa nak ada la kan… dapat beli L je.. Raito Yagami, Misa ngan Ryuk tak dapat… ingatkan Ikram nak belikan Raito, Iskandar nak belikan Ryuk pasai muka depa lebeh kurang la kan.. pastu Kak Misa kawan kak yong belikan Misa Misa… sebab name same kan…? tapi harapan je la.. hehehe… dah kasi duit kat Ikram soh tolong belikan… takot abes.. hehehe…

kad, sampul ngan frem gamba

kad tu upe nak amek gamba dari dalam… kak yong , mama ngan izati ade tules something… tapi tak bace sangat.. sebab mate dah kat kek… telinge kat pintu.. mane la tau kot Ikram ngan Iskanda balek bawak Raito ngan Ryuk… walau pon sah2 takdak.. hahaha… frem gamba tu dari Izati.. konon la.. hehehe.. mase beli L ngan barang2 kak yong tu org kedai tu cakap kalau beli barang total RM80 dapat free… so die beli lilen yg bulat2 tu nak kasi cukop.. hehehe… jadi la izatot…

dido ngan imo mase sampai umah... rindu gile..

ni time balek umah dari Penang… di jempot oleh 2 ekor kucing yg comel… hehehe… dah besa dah.. lari naik turon tangge slambe je skang… panjat almari la… gile… habes menan2 aku kene langga… pasan tak mate Dido…? die pasang LED yg kemahiran hidop tu dalam mate sempena kepulangan Tuan sejati die…

tu je… babay…

isnin yg ngantok..

pagi2 pegi keje dah sound bos… ape la adie.. bukan ape… Jumaat aritu lepas bebuke kitorang balek opis semate2 utk anta project… tetibe pagi2 isnin ni bebudak ni kene gi sane.. tak buang mase ke? bukan salah bos pon.. hehehe… sebenarnye ngantok.. hehehe… kene pulak balek tadi krete man accident… bengkok hud depan.. it still uses money kan? sian derang2 tu… bebuke pon lambat tadi..

lepas cakap ngan bos die teros kuar.. nak cari ‘bapak 3D’ katenye.. hehe.. actually its a computer good enough to handle our inexperience 3D works… haha.. tatau spec PC tu sgt… yg tau processor 2.6 Core™2 Quad, RAM 8 gig ngan harddisk 64gig utk C… 500gig utk keje… dua ketoi… so total 1064gig… gile.. RM7000… nanges kalau beli sendiri.. pastu tambah ngan 2 LCD… tatau size… tapi widescreen la… beli dasyat2 tapi kitorang sume hampeh… hahaha… modeling 3D pon tak lepas lagi…

petang tadi die balek.. tanye keje siket2 pastu tepat kol 5 teros tido.. hehe.. ape la adie.. bos nak tanye memacam tu… lukis balek kerekter menjadi rutin dah.. hahaha.. lukis balek memanjang… satu hari keje melukis sambel tersenggok2… main game facebook jap.. pastu sambong sambel tersenggok2 lagi.. haih.. adie ni… dush karang… ngan layan Elven Blood.. tak cukop party utk teroskan.. jadi kepade kawan.. tolong2 la accept invitation tu.. tanak main takpe.. accept sahaje dah membantu.. hahaha.. illustration die cantek2…

malam.. ngantok lagi.. nak tido awal.. kol 12 kire awal la kan.. campo ngan tenet cam haram ni… menunggu sambel makan chocolate bar ‘MARS‘ yg faiz temimpi2 tu… hehe… ana pon dah tido.. takleh sembang.. macam la slalu sembang.. haha… nak layan Lord of the Ring mail kasi pinjam pon tak larat dah.. ade deleted sceen… tapi ngantok gnite…

not a reliable person

i made a decision… took chances… but i failed… actually its an application… and i was rejected… i’m thinking of making ‘rejected’ my second name… adie ‘rejected’ mursyidi… maybe it would make me feel better… and the internet connection just confirmed that… cruel eyy.. like ‘iyakan’ what i’m writing… i’ll just go on with the writings… if it happen to be connected then i’ll just post this entry…. cilakak lu intenet… and suddenly the rain falls… patot la… i’m in the useless mode right now and shit happens.. back to the subject.. i made it for someone… mcm dah bagi harapan la… then rejected has the same meaning as failed.. so i failed this someone… i text her to tell the bad news… and she replied:

Xpe. U have tried yr best. N I appreciate it so much.

ayat pon cam nak sedapkan hati kan? and i was so sad i slept… its the other way than crying, right? i guess i’m not a reliable person…

kalau Allah makbulkan ape yg kite nak cepat… Dia sayangkan kite

kalau Allah makbulkan ape yg kite nak lambat… Dia nak uji kite

dan kalau Allah tak makbulkan… Dia ada sesuatu yg lebih baik utk kite…

so by anyways.. our God will love us no matter what… cume kite je terlupe kan? mungkin tak cukop usehe ke… i still feel bad for the incident… but there must be something better… Allah takkan uji hambanye lebih dari kemampuan kite… so there’s still something i can do…

and to Mama… i’m sorry i didnt accomplish what i tried to do… i tried… but it’s just not hard enough… sorry again…

sometimes i just hate myself

sometimes i just hate myself… being unable to help myself… what more to help other… especially my family… i dont know what i am to prove… sometimes i felt just like breaking away… to be someone else… not living in Idham Mursyidi’s shoes… fly away with my unseen wings… sleep every where.. stealing food at every Nando’s i see… *tak leh blah.. and keep on flying or gliding… feel the wind at my face till all the tense fade away.. actually i find peace in the wind… dont know why.. some people calm down by the sea… water i mean… is there anyone with fire? not sure but i think there are… but who am i to do that… damn…

i’ve been look down… but sometimes i enjoy the pleasure… actually its a gift… for me to know who i am… and to held me back from being a jerk… and sometimes i just ignore… like i need to be a jerk… kinda miss the 3 voices in my head… macam kumpulan gangstaz tu plak name derang.. i thought i was sick by then… but actually its just me…

but i should be and am ‘bersyukur’ for what Allah gave me… i’m not functionally retarded when sometimes i do act like one… the ability to breath… still got a job… wherever it sucks or not… i’m still happy… that’s the reason they pay you… to absorb the sucks and generate money.. right? and i still live… i love my life… the hate equals to sometimes… but i love my life… Thanks God… my family… friends… enemy… what is life without colours…

by the way… we’re our own devil… bulan pose maaa… lagi mau tipu ka? hehe… gnite… just a thought…

Yesterday just wasn’t my day

in the morning… my being annoyed limit was leaking when an annoying person sits beside me the whole morning.. you know… the know-everything-yet-know-nothing-type… gosh… that was a hell of a morning….

afternoon.. semayang jumaat and i lost my slippers… damn kids… hope its not an old fart because that person will be runover by a truck for a hundred metres and wont die… suffer till his last breath.. 10 years or more… i hope and i’m hoping… if i met him somewhere than that’s luck for him… cause i know my slippers.. where can u find that around here? or you’re from brazil…?!!

evening… i viewed spawn.com… ‘SPAWN’ COMIC BOOK ARTWORK CONTEST DEADLINE IS NEXT FRIDAY’ and i just realized i lost my artwork… you can view the contest here. i still got time.. but depressed with rejected characters at work… it effects me somehow.. all my life with rejected character… maybe i’m a rejected character myself..

then we went to Pasar Ramadhan when it suddenly rain.. i like rain… but only when i sleep… not when i’m walking through a ‘pasar’… and we end up breakfasting at our office… soaked wet… lembap2 busuk…

sahor… back from sahor.. Dido jeret2… when i check Imo wasn’t there… and what i remembered.. the was a pack of dogs near our house… called ann… asked her to check her house… and as usual… Shiro mintak makan… i just bought 4 of Shiro’s favourite packets… and just toss it away… my housemate took Dido downstairs… konon nak tengok mane Shiro bawak Dido pegi… nice plan but lembap action… the grill and gate were still locked… i rushed outside… as i opened the grill… Shiro was already outside the gate… panjat je la.. bukak dah tak sempat… and my housemate just follow what i do.. what can i say.. i’m his idol.. so Shiro end up at Ana’s house.. lege tapi berdeba2… and because of that i terlepas my kembongkan perot gan air session… keep on benganging till morning… cant sleep…

now… what will happen next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

am i mean?!!

yes.. i’m mean… actually i’m totally mean…

what wrong being mean when mean people do mean things to you?

so that’s why i’m mean.. and sometimes i prefer being one…

and sometimes it effect other people around… mean…

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definations of mean:-

• 1. Selfish in a petty way; unkind.
  2. Cruel, spiteful, or malicious.
• Ignoble; base: a mean motive.
• Miserly; stingy.
• Low in quality or grade; inferior.
• Low in value or amount; paltry: paid no mean amount for the new shoes.
• Common or poor in appearance; shabby: “The rowhouses had been darkened by the rain and looked meaner and grimmer than ever” (Anne Tyler).
• Low in social status; of humble origins.
• Humiliated or ashamed.
• In poor physical condition; sick or debilitated.
• Extremely unpleasant or disagreeable: The meanest storm in years.
• Informal. Ill-tempered.
• Slang.
  1. Hard to cope with; difficult or troublesome: He throws a mean fast ball.
  2. Excellent; skillful: She plays a mean game of bridge.

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so what makes you non of above?

are you mean too?