Archive for September, 2008

16
Sep
08

isnin yg ngantok..

pagi2 pegi keje dah sound bos… :) ape la adie.. bukan ape… Jumaat aritu lepas bebuke kitorang balek opis semate2 utk anta project… tetibe pagi2 isnin ni bebudak ni kene gi sane.. tak buang mase ke? bukan salah bos pon.. hehehe… sebenarnye ngantok.. hehehe… kene pulak balek tadi krete man accident… bengkok hud depan.. it still uses money kan? sian derang2 tu… bebuke pon lambat tadi..

lepas cakap ngan bos die teros kuar.. nak cari ‘bapak 3D’ katenye.. hehe.. actually its a computer good enough to handle our inexperience 3D works… haha.. tatau spec PC tu sgt… yg tau processor 2.6 Core™2 Quad, RAM 8 gig ngan harddisk 64gig utk C… 500gig utk keje… dua ketoi… so total 1064gig… gile.. RM7000… nanges kalau beli sendiri.. pastu tambah ngan 2 LCD… tatau size… tapi widescreen la… beli dasyat2 tapi kitorang sume hampeh… hahaha… modeling 3D pon tak lepas lagi… :(

petang tadi die balek.. tanye keje siket2 pastu tepat kol 5 teros tido.. hehe.. ape la adie.. bos nak tanye memacam tu… lukis balek kerekter menjadi rutin dah.. hahaha.. lukis balek memanjang… satu hari keje melukis sambel tersenggok2… main game facebook jap.. pastu sambong sambel tersenggok2 lagi.. haih.. adie ni… dush karang… ngan layan Elven Blood.. tak cukop party utk teroskan.. jadi kepade kawan.. tolong2 la accept invitation tu.. tanak main takpe.. accept sahaje dah membantu.. hahaha.. illustration die cantek2…

malam.. ngantok lagi.. nak tido awal.. kol 12 kire awal la kan.. campo ngan tenet cam haram ni… menunggu sambel makan chocolate bar ‘MARS‘ yg faiz temimpi2 tu… hehe… ana pon dah tido.. takleh sembang.. macam la slalu sembang.. haha… nak layan Lord of the Ring mail kasi pinjam pon tak larat dah.. ade deleted sceen… :) tapi ngantok :( gnite…

12
Sep
08

not a reliable person

i made a decision… took chances… but i failed… actually its an application… and i was rejected… i’m thinking of making ‘rejected’ my second name… adie ‘rejected’ mursyidi… maybe it would make me feel better… and the internet connection just confirmed that… cruel eyy.. like ‘iyakan’ what i’m writing… i’ll just go on with the writings… if it happen to be connected then i’ll just post this entry…. cilakak lu intenet… and suddenly the rain falls… patot la… i’m in the useless mode right now and shit happens.. :) back to the subject.. i made it for someone… mcm dah bagi harapan la… then rejected has the same meaning as failed.. so i failed this someone… i text her to tell the bad news… and she replied:

Xpe. U have tried yr best. N I appreciate it so much.

ayat pon cam nak sedapkan hati kan? and i was so sad i slept… its the other way than crying, right? i guess i’m not a reliable person…

kalau Allah makbulkan ape yg kite nak cepat… Dia sayangkan kite

kalau Allah makbulkan ape yg kite nak lambat… Dia nak uji kite

dan kalau Allah tak makbulkan… Dia ada sesuatu yg lebih baik utk kite…

so by anyways.. our God will love us no matter what… cume kite je terlupe kan? mungkin tak cukop usehe ke… i still feel bad for the incident… but there must be something better… Allah takkan uji hambanye lebih dari kemampuan kite… so there’s still something i can do… :)

and to Mama… i’m sorry i didnt accomplish what i tried to do… i tried… but it’s just not hard enough… sorry again…

09
Sep
08

you

you… do you have no feelings… why must you hurt everyone around you… why cant you put your ego aside… why must you let everyone look down on you… why do you always shit talk just to make you better…  yeah… you think you’re over the top just by your lies… you can create shit through your teethe to anyone… but not to me.. not to me at all.. i know you..  i know you since i was born… i grow up with you.. what makes you better than me… are you better or you think you’re better… you can stuck up your nose high.. but not at me damn it… you can tell your heroic stories… you can make stories… but not at me.. i know who you are… i know what you’ve been through… and i still know what you are now… just push your ego aside… i can help… all i want is for you to ask… but what are you doing now… dont you see what you’ve become… do you know what i’m going through?!! are you stupid enough to realize that??? do you know who i am??.. do you know me at all…

They just smack you right in your face… are you happy? but what can you do? they were the people you called friends… and all i know their your only friends left… and what have they done to you..? i know how you feel… you can hide it from everyone.. but not at me… you made yourself… you choose to be like this… its you the one to blame… stop blaming everyone else… stop being an useless person… i know what you’re better at.. but where are you… just because jealousy and your own perfect self… you threw away what you have… just to be better?? stop trying… you’ll never be… just know where you stand… you’re hurting everyone… you think i blame them??? i blame you… stop humiliating yourself…

yes… i’m the crybaby… but i cry for myself.. i cry for my mother… i never cried for anyone… i get piss off for my love one.. but i never cry for anyone… i never cried out of pity… but i cry for you… cant you see what you’re doing??? can you see at all?!!! i’m crying for you damn it… if you wanna be better than me.. dont try.. just be!!! and stop being me…

09
Sep
08

sometimes i just hate myself

sometimes i just hate myself… being unable to help myself… what more to help other… especially my family… i dont know what i am to prove… sometimes i felt just like breaking away… to be someone else… not living in Idham Mursyidi’s shoes… fly away with my unseen wings… sleep every where.. stealing food at every Nando’s i see… *tak leh blah.. and keep on flying or gliding… feel the wind at my face till all the tense fade away.. actually i find peace in the wind… dont know why.. some people calm down by the sea… water i mean… is there anyone with fire? not sure but i think there are… :) but who am i to do that… damn…

i’ve been look down… but sometimes i enjoy the pleasure… actually its a gift… for me to know who i am… and to held me back from being a jerk… and sometimes i just ignore… like i need to be a jerk… kinda miss the 3 voices in my head… macam kumpulan gangstaz tu plak name derang.. :) i thought i was sick by then… but actually its just me…

but i should be and am ‘bersyukur’ for what Allah gave me… i’m not functionally retarded when sometimes i do act like one… the ability to breath… still got a job… wherever it sucks or not… i’m still happy… that’s the reason they pay you… to absorb the sucks and generate money.. right? and i still live… i love my life… the hate equals to sometimes… but i love my life… Thanks God… my family… friends… enemy… what is life without colours…

by the way… we’re our own devil… bulan pose maaa… lagi mau tipu ka? hehe… gnite… just a thought…

07
Sep
08

dah sayang shiro balek… hehehe…

just to tell you guys… smalam memang marah sgt ngan Shiro… tanak kasi makan.. die nak ikot naik atas pon tak kasi… letak makanan depan die tapi tak bukak.. buek3.. hahaha… emo kan? hahaha… pastu lame2 die buat muke kesian… when i went out to berbuke… she followed and waited at the door… sian lak.. hehehe.. pastu malam die naik atas… angah dah pakaikan rantai die balek… die cam nak tunjok… datang dekat2 lompat lebeh2… kasi loceng bunyi… kire pujuk la tu.. then i hug her.. slalu die tak suke.. tapi kali ni die bia je… tau dah buat salah ek… hahaha.. so skang.. dah sayang shiro balek… tapi pet dekat Pet Society tu malas nak tuka dah.. mahal.. hehehe.. :)

Mummy Shiro

gamba Shiro yg curi dari Ee.. hehehe.. thanks Fathihi..

06
Sep
08

Yesterday just wasn’t my day

in the morning… my being annoyed limit was leaking when an annoying person sits beside me the whole morning.. you know… the know-everything-yet-know-nothing-type… gosh… that was a hell of a morning….

afternoon.. semayang jumaat and i lost my slippers… damn kids… hope its not an old fart because that person will be runover by a truck for a hundred metres and wont die… suffer till his last breath.. 10 years or more… i hope and i’m hoping… if i met him somewhere than that’s luck for him… cause i know my slippers.. where can u find that around here? or you’re from brazil…?!!

evening… i viewed spawn.com… ‘SPAWN’ COMIC BOOK ARTWORK CONTEST DEADLINE IS NEXT FRIDAY’ and i just realized i lost my artwork… you can view the contest here. i still got time.. but depressed with rejected characters at work… it effects me somehow.. all my life with rejected character… maybe i’m a rejected character myself..

then we went to Pasar Ramadhan when it suddenly rain.. i like rain… but only when i sleep… not when i’m walking through a ‘pasar’… and we end up breakfasting at our office… soaked wet… lembap2 busuk…

sahor… back from sahor.. Dido jeret2… when i check Imo wasn’t there… and what i remembered.. the was a pack of dogs near our house… called ann… asked her to check her house… and as usual… Shiro mintak makan… i just bought 4 of Shiro’s favourite packets… and just toss it away… my housemate took Dido downstairs… konon nak tengok mane Shiro bawak Dido pegi… nice plan but lembap action… the grill and gate were still locked… i rushed outside… as i opened the grill… Shiro was already outside the gate… panjat je la.. bukak dah tak sempat… and my housemate just follow what i do.. what can i say.. i’m his idol.. so Shiro end up at Ana’s house.. lege tapi berdeba2… and because of that i terlepas my kembongkan perot gan air session… keep on benganging till morning… cant sleep…

now… what will happen next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

04
Sep
08

9 Fat-Burning Eating Tips

taken from hungrygirl.. it was on yahoo’s ads…

LEAN PROTEIN
To put it simply, protein takes a lot of effort for the body to break down and digest. A lot more than, say, fat. So while your body is working hard to process that protein, you’re burning calories. HG tip — eat fish! Chances are you’re not getting enough of it. Not only is fish a fabulous source of lean protein, BUT many types are full of those Omega-3 fatty acids you’re always hearing about. Beans are also a wonderful source of protein. And it’s no secret how we feel about our friend the soybean. (Let’s have a cheer for veggie patties and soy-meats!)

WHOLE GRAINS
Belly fat is not particularly cute on anyone (except maybe babies), so it’s exciting news that whole grains can do a number on that stubborn flab around your midsection. One of the easiest ways to get whole grains into your diet? Oatmeal in the morning. Quaker’s Simple Harvest Multigrain Hot Cereal is really good and just full of grains. Also, Kashi GoLean’s Hot Cereal packs in 7 whole grains and a big 5 – 7g fiber! Mmmmm…

GRAPEFRUIT
Ever since you were a kid popping Flintstones Chewables, you’ve known that Vitamin C is good for you — and that certainly hasn’t changed. Vitamin C is a powerful antioxidant AND has been shown in studies to help burn fat. So, if you’re looking for a snack, how’s about a nice, juicy grapefruit? The theory is that grapefruit helps to lower insulin levels, which keeps you from being hungry all the time! We know it smacks of classic diet food, but those Ruby Reds are MIGHTY delicious! If it’s too sour for you straight, sprinkle it with some no-calorie sweetener like Splenda or stevia.

GREEN TEA
Green tea is EVERYWHERE. It’s been classified as a “superfood” as it’s been linked to reduced rates of heart disease and cancer. And now it helps us lose weight too? Green tea has been shown to raise our metabolism, which is key in our battle with the bad stuff. Researchers also suspect that substances called polyphenols combined with caffeine are responsible for its fat-burning properties. If the hot murky stuff doesn’t do it for you, try HG’s Green Tea Crème Swappuccino! Only 75 calories and SO GOOD!

SPICY FOODS
You know how when you eat spicy foods, you sometimes start to sweat a little (ew)? That’s because it’s given a little kick to your heart rate. These little kicks will result in a temporary increase in your metabolism, which will help you burn fat a little easier for a bit. A quick hit with cayenne, red pepper flakes, or whatever hot sauce you fancy should do the trick and get your blood pumping. And these spices are practically calorie-free. Yes!

LIGHT DAIRY
Hey, dairy queens! Good news! It turns out that people who eat low-fat or fat-free dairy lose MORE weight than people who don’t. Sure we mentioned protein before, but it bears bringing up again since the magical combo of calcium and protein seems to work wonders. We’re WAY into yogurt, so we suggest picking up some Fage Total 0% Greek Yogurt and mixing in your favorite fruits, sugar-free preserves… or whatever! Also, light string cheese is a GREAT little snack, with only around 50-60 calories and 2.5g fat a pop. Not bad for hard cheese, people.

WATER
Experts say it’s important to drink lots of water if you’re trying to burn fat Your body can’t work effectively if it’s dehydrated — not only will you FEEL like you don’t have any energy, but also your body really won’t have what it needs to function and burn off fat. Keep that machine humming — drink around 8 glasses of water a day!

CINNAMON
Sure this stuff tastes good — that’s why it’s found in SO many things. But those chefs might not know that their sprinkling of cinnamon is helping the body process sugar more effectively and lower blood sugar levels. High blood sugar can lead to the body storing more fat, so maybe put together a little shaker of cinnamon and Splenda to sprinkle on your favorite foods! Then whip up some fat-burning cinnamon toast by using your new concoction on whole-wheat bread!

APPLES
An apple a day isn’t going to keep the gym away, but it’ll probably make your diet plan more effective. Word on the street is that the pectin contained in apples limits how much fat your cells can absorb. (SWEET!) Plus it’s a naturally soluble fiber, which is always good. So next time you feel all snacky, grab whichever apple looks best to you (we love Fujis!).

02
Sep
08

Slamat berpuase sume dan selamat beramaaaal

memandangkan Merdeka jatoh pada hari ahad… so dapat cuti di hari senayan yakni hari pertame puase tahon ini.. alhamdulillah dapat rest sebelom start keje.. hehehe… jadi pade kawan2 dan umat manusia sekalian yg ada terase atau terkecil hati sempena bibir sexy ku yg tak mampu membayar insuran… :) daku ingin meminta maaf.. semoga kita semua diberkati Allah… dan kepade kedai2 makan yg sapot org tak berpuase… harap2 berhenti buat perangai nak untong lebeh tu… bukak pasar ramadhan.. hehe.. kerana bile bersubahat.. anda tanggong bersama.. baik sediakan makanan untok org berpuase.. dapat pahale org puase… cube bayang kalau sediakan untok 30 org puase.. kan dah dapat pahale sebulan.. hehehe… Slamat berpuase sume dan selamat beramaaaal (nade ustaz kat radio tu)